lying with a man
i feel my years of femininity on full display
disjointed, aware breaths taken like whispers
i wave my nails at the floodlight window
perfectly blue, perfectly woman
his face is turned away
i perceive like a camera’s lens
hairy-freckled arm to armpit to torso
lying against this man
i feel dark
olive skin shocks the white abreast
he doesn’t move at a silent inhale
the porcelain doll i used to care for
rocking to sleep / cooking in my play kitchen
Ayer noche, besé las pecas en la oscuridad porque conocía dónde encontrarlas.
i manipulate, i pry, i cry out apologies
but you are impenetrable
because you are human
breathing soft
your privacy taunts my privacy
you can never be my.
come closer and tangle me